Have a nervous breakdown and turn the volume all the way down. Consider that trip to North Dakota. Get in the van and keep the windows up. It’s hot, but it’s likely not deadly. Shift. Get moved around. Try to focus and get distracted. Accept things exactly as they are. It simply is or it isn’t. There are no absolutes. Nothing is guaranteed. Nothing lasts forever. Birth, life, death. It’s the same for everybody. What happens in the middle is irrelevant. Stop. Just stop. Just stop and start over. Again. Pay down your debt. Focus on the kids. Get them a house with a couple of bedrooms. Turn it off. Turn it all off. When the volume goes down the anxiety follows. It can be done. Get comfortable with solitude. Look in the mirror and appreciate the reflection. You are you and that’s never going to change. Exercise. Drink water. Eat better. Enjoy everything and change for no one. You got this. You always have.