04.28.20

I took yesterday off to try and manage your anxiety. I started with a bowl of oatmeal and a cup of coffee. It helped.

I took yesterday off to try and manage my insecurity. I started with a bowl of oatmeal and a cup of coffee. It helped.

I took yesterday off to try and manage my own feelings about how I am in this world. I started with a walk around the block and a cigarette in the driveway. I heard the birds chirping and it reminded me that I have a voice. It helped.

I took yesterday off to try and ease the pain I feel when I think about some of the choices I’ve made in my life. I started with a breathing exercise where I count to a certain number and then do it again with a different number and so on. It was good to slow down and realize my own natural existence. It was good to feel the air pour into my lungs and visualize it serving all of my appendages. It was meditation and it helped.

I took yesterday off to feel alive. I started by getting out of bed and putting my pants on and making a cup of coffee in my little coffee machine. I eased into the day by letting the dog outside and sitting quietly while the sun made its way up and over the horizon. For a few minutes I just sat there and enjoyed everything that was happening around me. It was real nice and it helped and then I got on my bike and rode to work.

Maybe I’ll take tomorrow off, too…